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Agreement of Soul and Spirit

Recently I awoke after having a perplexing spiritual dream. In the dream I saw something over and over again and was completely unable to comprehend what I saw. It was a “dark saying” “a parable,”  “a mystery, something that was hard to be uttered regarding prayer and how God views our corrupt prayers.

In the dream people were coming before the Lord in prayer holding up their empty cups of need,. but the words that they spoke in the dream did not match their needs, instead what they spoke to God were words of want of the soul, words of empty vanity, meaningless babblings and vain repetitions in the hope that but their much speaking that God would hear. And by God hearing; what we really mean is that God will obey us, and grants our carnal wants.

But in the dream I saw the Holiness of the Lord, I saw that He did not hear the prayer of the corrupt. But there is one who hears the cry of the corrupt, and is all too willing to grant you your deepest, darkest, desires. 

In the dream I saw that God in His Holiness will not grant prayers that contain the lusts of the human heart. Specifically when feigns to pray for healing, deliverance, or for God’s provision for themselves or someone else but as they speak their soul betrays them before God telling him of their desire to be lifted up in the eyes of the brethren, to exalted before men, or that what is being prayed is borne of a covetous heart and what the eye desires of other believers and from the world.  God is a Righteous and a Holy and He will not grant prayers when they are used to justify yourself, to justify your teachings, and to justify your doctrines. 

It is the very nature of corrupt and evil men that upon the smallest answer to prayer to say”  See,  I prayed!  See I DID THAT.  See I fasted and I DID THAT, I was healed, delivered, I received provision and therefore that means  -- that my prayer worked. That I have power and prevailed with God, . that my words are truth, that my teachings are correct. That my doctrine is correct. That I am anointed of God and worthy of disciples.

I saw that when a miracle or the power of God comes in a sovereign act, the scribes, the lawyers, and the faith Pharisees come out in force. To ascribe meaning to this working of God. For without their naming it, and without their putting their corrupt hand mark all over it, how then shall they be able to claim ownership of it?  They seek to quantify the unquantifiable. To measure the immeasurable. To make patterns of the unpatternable. And in so doing they seek to measure it against what they teach and believe.

And with these measurements, these patterns, there is never any correction of any of their errors. They are never brought to a place of repentance that they might be changed. Instead they proclaim form the housetops that they believe and teach have been justified.

Ultimately the preachers of this hour are filled with corrupt desires to reproduce a given  sign wonder or diverse miracle at their beck and call for their ministry, – so that they can do this in and of themselves without God.

The Church of this hour as their fathers the children of Israel in the wilderness are a hard-hearted and stiff-necked people who are always given to idolatry. The actively seek to possess these patterns. The church in turn actively seeks after these doctrines of men, and believers seek out boastful men and their vainglorious ministries to disciple themselves after them.  They eulogize and praise these corrupt men and their ministries, and shower these carnal men with their tithes offerings and gifts in hopes of turning their heads. And all too many times they are successful, and they end up reaping what they have sown   Instead of being made partakers of that glories and power of that ministry, they are indeed made partakers but not at all of what they think they are partaking of. Instead of partaking of the ministry and operations they see they have become partakers of the teachers sin and iniquity. For in becoming their followers and or by giving them our financial support, or by just being a member of their church or ministry we have become their enablers, and are feeding their eyes of lust and avarice. And because we have become their enablers, we have also enabled them through our giving and various means of support to corrupt others, locally, over the radio waves, on television, and in evangelistic meets in foreign lands.  For what they preach  is not the Gospel  of the kingdom but their own Gospel that lifts up and exalts them and their ministry for they indeed do come in their own name and Christ warned of this:  And him will ye hear and follow after.

This stiff necked and idolatrous generation is guilty of worshiping anything that the creator created rather than Him alone.  We worship any that claim they were healed, and delivered that we by any means might receive a portion of that which they were touched with. We worship buildings, places were events took place, we talk up revivals long past so that by any means we might be receive some portion of what once was in that pace of from that source. We worship our worship, and we worship the angel of His presence for the same reason – We make the glory of God an unclean thing, we take it touch it and corrupt it.  For in it we never come to the Lord. And that is why our incurable wound is never healed, and that is why we are not changed. Jesus Said when I would have gathered you as chicks you would not. 

And in the meetings of these ministries never have truer words been spoken than these: He came unto his own and His own received him not. Instead they rejoice only for a season in the light.  After 2-3 hours in a meeting they then walk away, back to their earthly lives. Know that God is not mocked, for this generation comes to me with their lips but their heart is far from me.

Colossians 2:18 Let no man beguile you of your reward in a voluntary humility and worshipping of angels (Messengers men, from heaven, or even  the angel of his presence), intruding into those things which he hath not seen, (This is the opposite of that which we have seen and our hands have handled) vainly puffed up by his fleshly mind,

Lamentations 2:22 Thou hast called as in a solemn day my terrors round about, so that in the day of the LORD's anger none escaped nor remained: those that I have swaddled and brought up hath mine enemy consumed.

Those that do partake, those that have soiled their garments in order to partake of this corruption shall be destroyed.

Hosea 2:10-12 And now will I discover her lewdness in the sight of her lovers, and none shall deliver her out of mine hand. 11I will also cause all her mirth to cease, her feast days, her new moons, and her sabbaths, and all her solemn feasts.  12And I will destroy her vines and her fig trees, whereof she hath said, These are my rewards that my lovers have given me: and I will make them a forest, and the beasts of the field shall eat them.

This is spoken of this the Klesia of this generation and the coming generation. This is spoken of our day.

 For in vain do their worship me.  I loath their sacrifices and offerings, I loath their solemn meetings when they cry I shall not hear.

We with our mouths eulogize pastors, ministries, and ourselves boasting of their gifts and ministries as if the power of God were their own or our own.

John 15:5 I am the vine, ye are the branches: He that abideth in me, and I in him, the same bringeth forth much fruit: for without me ye can do nothing.

We sin with our lips when we praise and eulogize these carnal pastors, ministries, and we do so as well when give testimony and take unto ourselves the glory that is due to God alone , by ascribing the acts as if their originated from ourselves as if they happened because of our prowess with God, as if their happened because of our fasting and praying, our because some holiness we think we possess.

Judge ye, who is greater the one who asks or the one who has the power to fulfill? Is therefore the one who prays, the one who fasts, the one who is touched worthy of praise and adoration?

What is being said is that by the work of their soul these men and ministries in and of of themselves have produced the power of God. And when we praise them of with lips  -- we do worship. When we bear about their words and testimonies we are their disciples. And when we support in prayer, fasting, and with our corrupt mammon and there fore have we become their enablers and we therefore become partakers in their sins. 

But there is one that is only too happy to grant you the lusts of your heart even the one who spoke with Eve in the garden.

Most believers are conflicted as they pray, as they worship, as they confess with their lips, and as they tithe and give offerings. The confliction comes from many fronts. Our hearts condemn us.  The Spirit of God strives with us and our corrupt soul keeps speaking the corruption that is hidden in our hearts.  

Conflicted when we pray our soul speaks something different than what we want to pray or confess before God.  God sees and here’s this. When we stand there and try to confess ourselves into something that we are not, our soul speaks something different than what we are confessing. We are supposed to confess the truth, that which our eyes have seen that which our hands have handled and instead we try to use our lips to try reform the clay that we are into that which we are not.  

We have come with a new level of sin beyond that of our fathers – for they cried out to the potter why have you made us thus – angering the lord. But this generation seeks now as the clay to form themselves and imbue themselves with gifts ministries so that they can receive the worship of men, and make themselves wealthy. This is the way of darkness. This is the way of death.

Proverbs 8:34-36 Blessed is the man that heareth me, watching daily at my gates, waiting at the posts of my doors. For whoso findeth me findeth life, and shall obtain favour of the LORD. But he that sinneth against me wrongeth his own soul: all they that hate me love death.

Proverbs 24:12  If thou sayest, Behold, we knew it not; doth not he that pondereth the heart consider it? and He that keepeth thy soul, doth not he know it? and shall not he render to every man according to his works?

Psalm 106:12-15 Then believed they his words; they sang his praise. They soon forgat his works; they waited not for his counsel: But lusted exceedingly in the wilderness, and tempted God in the desert. And he gave them their request; but sent leanness into their soul.

Psalm 107:5 Hungry and thirsty, their soul fainted in them.

Numbers 30:2  If a man vow a vow unto the LORD, or swear an oath to bind his soul with a bond; he shall not break his word, he shall do according to all that proceedeth out of his mouth.

Psalm 41:4 I said, LORD, be merciful unto me: heal my soul; for I have sinned against thee.